To audition or not to audtion? Thats is the question, but what's the answer?

Hey,

It's been a while since I last wrote so I've got soo much to fill you in with!!

On Saturday, I went to the Xfactor 2011 live tour, I saw it at the o2 with my sister. I was really impressed with the standard of (some of) the singers! Amelia Lily, wow, that girl is amazing And the risk, well not only are they a pleasure to listen to - but also not bad to look at either! Others, no names mentioned but a certain Lady Gaga wanna be, well in my opinion the vocals lacked and they concentrated more on looking like a freak rather than singing. But hey, if that's how they like to be portrayed, good on them for sticking to their roots!

I've got the debate at the moment whether to enter for xfactor 2012…other than the fact the audition falls on one of my best friends birthday outings and me missing the beginning of the 23 tequila challenge, I'd be worried of being another Xfactor hopefull who ruins any chance of being taken seriously in the music industry. Don't get me wrong, some amazing artists have come out of Xfactor and gone on to have successful careers, and not to mentioned signed by the biggest man in the music industry, but so have others who although they have brilliant vocals, gets a one hit wonder and end up working in a dead end job. Do I really want to brand myself as another Xfactor reject (we're working on the basis that if I don't win it lol) - and have a quick fix in to the music industry, or do I want to work my butt off and get gigs, and make people believe in me and watch me grow as a performer from day one?

Aarrgh I don't know what to do. Part of me really wants to go, because if I don't, I'll always be thinking, what if. Could that me be on stage at the o2 next year?

I have heard that Xfactor are letting auditionees sing their own songs this year to actually bring in talented artists, so this could be a big opportunity for me to get my music heard. At the end of the day, that's what I want. People to listen to and to relate to my music.

I need help. I knew this proffession would be hard, and I've had so many people telling me that the chances of "making it" are slim. I know that. However,I also think that a lot of people can relate to my lyrics - I've also have lots of people telling me that all aspiring singers think that too.

If I become successful through Xfactor, it's almost like a guranteed path your career will take, you release one song, dissapear for a year making an album, come back when the next series starts and hope your career takes off. I want to make my album, release a song, if it's a hit, release another one straight away to keep the Buzz. In my head it sounds so simple, but I know it's not.

I guess it all comes down to one question, to audition or not to audition??

What do you think?

Love Yazi May xxx