I don't think I've been in here sober...now I'm singing here!

Dear Diary,

How nervous was I today! Omg! I have sang in various venues with a range of numbers of people. Yet here I am, quivering about singing in my local pub. I drink in this place, I socialise in this place, imagine if I now sing here, mess up, and have to show my face here! I know, terrifying! I don’t think I have ever felt nerves like I did when I was getting ready to sing in the Red Lion, Sittingbourne.

I felt like I had this enormous pressure to do well on my shoulders! Everyone kept telling me to calm down, but it wasn't working unfortunately.

I'm not going to lie, and I'm sure the punters will tell you too….the first couple of songs were a bit shaky! LOL. After a while I did relax and start to enjoy it - and actually get control over my vocal chords and diaphragm! It really helped that all my friends were there, it was so comforting to see them all sitting there supporting me. The best bit was when they started getting up a picture of me in lets say, a very inebriated stated in Magaluf and showing it around. I had to try so hard to stiffle a laugh! Love them!

It was a really good night, and the pub was busy so I'm going to take it as a success…..not sure if I'll be back…but I'm happy for the moment to go there and just relax! :)

Love Yazi May xxx

Adding life to days, when days can't be added to life xxx

Dear Diary,

I had the honour of singing at Demelza House childrens hospice last Saturday… it really opened my eyes to the world and to start with I was actually quite shocked. To be perfectly honesy, I don't think I really prepared myself for what I was about to do. I met some absolutely amazing children, who although they hadn't been dealt with a good hand of cards, smile and enjoy every day! It was really inspirational.

A young girl, Alisha, told me about her charity on Ataxia and I'm waiting to hear from her to see if there is anything I can do to help her with fundraising. It is lovely when people ask me to help them, and I always try my hardest to do anything to help someone else.

I sang for about half an hour, with a mixture of songs, which included 2 of my original material, One for You and That Boy. I got lots of compliments on the day, so hopefully they enjoyed it. As long as the children had a good time, that was the main thing.

It’s amazing how music can affect someone's life. It's a therapy, everyone can relate to music, everyone. I can remember looking up and see a young teenager smiling away in his wheelchair whilst I was singing and it was such a special moment for me, I just felt my heart swell with love for the people surrounding me.

Thank you Demelza for letting me sing for you, it was a lovely day and I'm so glad the weather held up!!

Love

Yazi May xxx